The Dome Project

So remember how everybody was saying how MJ was working on something called the Dome Project, and then somehow everybody started thinking that that and the 3D Thriller were somehow one and the same thing? I really don’t think they were. Supposedly the Dome Project was being worked on in Culver City. The TII dancers are all working on something and Timor talked about being back working on a project in Culver City. I think the Dome Project is being completed right now. Whatever it is. It’s still ongoing and being worked on. IMO.

The Last Theory That Makes Sense

After approving about 45 comments and writing my “I’m done” post, I caught up on my emails. Since I’m signing off here I want to present one last theory. There are many different pieces that don’t add up. Nothing “totally” adds up to a simple death, but a lot doesn’t add up to murder. There was Souza’s brilliant movie theory, but then that didn’t happen and with the time that has elapsed it makes MJ seem kind of a monster to continue on in that theory. Why play with the fans like that?

The DEA sting theory, which was mine (others came up with it independently of me as well I’m sure. More than one person can have the same idea at the same time, but I posted it first on MJHD) was that MJ was both trying to reclaim his name and help the DEA with a sting operation to take out some of these enabling doctors. But if THAT were true what does Kenny Ortega or the TII dancers have to do with it? Nothing. It would make no sense in a big FBI-level case to let any of those people know MJ is alive. And some of those tweets do seem to indicate that KO at least knows something. Or he’s on shrooms. Jury’s still out on that one.

One thing I’d said early on was that MJ might be in a coma. I’m putting the following forth as my final official theory in the “If MJ is alive” thing. Though at this point I think he’s likely dead, if he’s alive this is the only theory that maintains any level of “sense” to me that makes everything make some degree of sense and ties up all lose ends without requiring too big of a conspiracy for stupid reasons.

So here is the scenario as I see it…

Dr. Murray administers drugs to MJ and he’s unresponsive. Paramedics are called, he’s rushed to the hospital. Somehow he’s stabilized but is in a coma. The family makes a fast executive decision. The coma could last a very long time. He may wake up, he may not.

Remember all the news outlets were originally reporting MJ in a coma, and this was before it turned into a big circus. Reporting random shit that doesn’t make sense is unlikely to happen that early in the forming of a story. They all said he was in a coma, then the story was changed completely. It wasn’t “He was in a coma for a little while but then he died.” They took the coma part out of the story altogether. And that was their mistake. Now not saying News media knew, they probably don’t. One of their sources just said there was a mix-up, they accepted it at face value. After all… MJ dead is MUCH bigger news than MJ in a coma for god knows how long.

MJ being the most famous man on the planet, the few who know he’s in a coma, know that it could become a big problem for everyone involved and the family reasons that Michael needs some peace. Imagine all the fans crowded around the medical center for days, weeks, months on end, making it harder for people at UCLA to get their jobs done and for those who come to the medical center to get good treatment in a timely manner.

The medical center agrees to allow the family to put forth this death story and take MJ out as if he’s dead. Murray knows as well but he can’t talk, because the truth is… he’s guilty as sin. Whether MJ dies or not, he’s sunk. If he says MJ is alive and in a coma… well who put him there? Dr. Murray. His best option is to keep his damn mouth shut. He refuses to sign the death certificate because he’s already in enough trouble.

In fact no one wants to sign the death certificate. Someone finally comes up with the idea for someone to sign a fake death certificate and they do. They also tinker with a few of the details to further the fakery and hopefully keep their asses out of a legal vice if/when Michael wakes up. The medical center also refuses to make the announcement that MJ has died. Jermaine, forever loving the spotlight, takes the stage to make the announcement. Jermaine’s convoluted story in direct contradiction to the earlier new-media coma story, is swallowed whole by the media and everyone else. After all, WHY would Jermaine lie about something like that?

MJ is moved to a safe location. The kids are told of the situation and the kids are “doing well” because they maintain hope that their dad is going to be okay. Janet acts a little weird about the whole thing because she doesn’t really know what to do about it. Would Michael want this? He’d talked before about wanting to escape everything, if he wakes up this gives him a new chance at life and privacy since the world thinks he’s dead. Will he be pissed? How much can she involve herself in any of it and remain loyal to Michael? Katharine is in a similar pickle.

There has been much talk about MJ being covered by a white sheet and not in the proper coroner’s bag. If he’s not actually dead, they can’t exactly get use of that. Though they later are able to get the coroner to at least partially be involved in it. They can just “seal” the coroner’s report and not let any actual official reports come from him.

What about the paparazzi videos and photographs? That’s just opportunism. They all try to get video and photos but it’s not happening. During the videoing portion, one of the guys is standing back. He knows the other guy isn’t going to actually get a shot in those lighting conditions, not a clear shot. But he’s been following MJ since the 90’s and has some old photos from when MJ collapsed in NY that he can use and touch up. They go into photoshop, make a little magic and sell the photo to the highest bidder. MJ would want him to go to medical school after all. Of course he doesn’t know MJ is alive, has no clue, he just knows that his shot at getting the only death photo of MJ didn’t happen, but no one else has it either. What they do have is proof that the shot was taken. Sort of. No one knows what came out on the film, so he opportunistically creates something to sell. Medical school here he comes.

Joe of course is the big ass he always is. But it makes more sense with his son not actually dead. If MJ had hoaxed his death there is no way he’d tell Joe about it. But if MJ is in a coma, then Joe, like the rest of the family knows about it. Believing MJ will pull through is the glue that makes everyone in this family behave in bizarre ways that are incongruent with a loved family member dying.

Janet and LaToya rush to the mansion to move stuff. Why? They have to contaminate the scene and slow down the investigation. If Murray ends up going to prison for some variation on murder and MJ turns out to be alive, then everybody is in a LOT of trouble. Alternately, police officers could be aware of the situation and that may be why the “case” has moved at a snail’s pace. They know they’ve got him for something, but until MJ decides whether he’s in or out of this world, no actual charges can officially be moved on. Though occasionally they leak something to the press for those going: “Hey, why is Murray still practicing medicine? Why hasn’t he been arrested?”

Perhaps MJ had some type of legal set up so power of attorney was moved to someone else if he were ever incapacitated like in a coma. He’s a very powerful man, he has to know if something like that happens where he’s straddling the fence between life and death, that someone has to make decisions. Enter all these people MJ trusted: Frank Dileo, John Branca, etc.

We’ve wondered why has the family acted so fucking weird. It’s like they’re covering something up. But given MJ’s strained relationships with some of them, all of them would not have been notified of a hoax or faked death. They also would not purposefully cover up MJ being murdered. A coma is the only situation that makes sense.

The court stuff gets dragged out and is a huge mess because while someone else has legal power to act in MJ’s behalf, this is getting messier and messier and some of this they didn’t think fully through because they had to make a snap decision back at the hospital. There was no massive plan. The family DID get together with MJ a few months prior, but it wasn’t to hoax his death. Who knows what it was about but this probably wasn’t exactly what MJ had in mind when he said whatever he said.

Now everybody is running to catch up. Katharine is awarded temporary custody because if MJ wakes up… well obviously he gets custody of his own kids back. None of this shit is HIS fault. I mean fuck, dude’s in a coma, what can he do about it all?

Kenny Ortega and a few others either are told or figure out what is going on. KO swears to keep it quiet because hell if MJ comes back, the MJ back from the dead tour will be awesome. He’s very optimistic about MJ’s possible recovery as are the TII dancers and everyone begins working on something that MJ will be proud of. Many of them can barely contain their giddyness on Twitter.

Funeral arrangements are put off forever because it’s just “too much” to go that far with it. The family has decided the memorial is okay. MJ may not wake up and this may be his fans’ only chance to really mourn so they are doing something good for the world. KO knew from that far back and his slip up about “we were here just last week” is in reference to him and the TII dancers already beginning rehearsals on something Michael would be proud of. When things look uncertain, throw yourself into your work. Which is exactly what they do.

Some of the slip-ups seem almost intentional because if MJ is alive and decides to come back, then there has to be at least some expectation in some people that that is the case. Arnie Klein doesn’t know a goddamn thing, but he makes a slip anyway because he thinks something fishy is going on and maybe it’s a hoax, so what the hell? May as well throw his own weird shit out there about MJ being the greatest actor. Let people chew on that one for awhile. And while he’s at it he can say he’s the baby daddy. Hell, let’s everybody say we’re the daddy of MJ’s kids. Normal opportunism ensues mixing up the stories of those in the know, and those not in the know who are taking advantage of situations that personally benefit them.

The whole thing gets completely out of control and everybody is playing their own tune now doing their own bizarre things because MJ isn’t really dead so they can somehow justify “capitalizing” off his death and all the other weird things they do. Some people are just throwing weirdness out there for their ten seconds of fame. Some people interviewed are telling the actual story of what THEY know (because they aren’t in the loop) and making the situation even more confusing, especially for those paying attention like hoax followers.

So burial time happens, they’ve put it off and put it off, if MJ wakes up he will be so beyond freaked out about it, but people are starting to ask questions and they have to do something. So they do the burial. Originally they plan to do it on MJ’s birthday but that gets quickly veto’d as it’s just too damn morbid and MJ will have a fit if/when he wakes up. The man who never wants to die, you do not orchestrate a fake burial on his birthday. That’s just insane.

Of course Mac and Liz were notified very early on about what was going on, so they’ve remained fairly silent on all of this. They’re pretty pissed about what’s going on because Michael wouldn’t like it. A few of MJ’s other close friends also know and are keeping a very big distance from all this because if MJ wakes up the shit will fly all over everywhere. (Seriously if you’ve ever seen one of the very rare videos of MJ in pissed-off mode, dude hide. Eeek. This man is not to be trifled with. He’s like Chuck Norris lol.)

KO expresses his dismay that MJ STILL isn’t with us. Oprah, rather confused and thinking KO may be a few bricks short and has had some sort of psychotic break, corrects him saying he’s NOT with us. KO after all expected MJ to make a full recovery already. In fact, maybe he wonders if MJ is awake but he hasn’t been notified.

Randy Phillips has said something about how what happened that day at the hospital isn’t something MJ either thought or planned. If what they say went down actually went down, that makes no sense. Of COURSE MJ didn’t plan that shit. But, if MJ was in a coma, but some believe MJ is alive and therefore faked his death, then perhaps this is Randy’s way of saying: “Look guys, all this crap and fallout, it’s not Michael’s fault.”

Many of the family members use all the fall out surrounding Michael’s “death” to boost their own careers. Jermaine goes to work planning tribute concerts, telling everybody that “if MJ was really dead, this is what we’d be doing.” However the tribute is continually postponed because deep down Jermaine knows if/when MJ wakes up if Jermaine has been fucking with his fans, a Jackson might actually die in all this but it won’t be Michael. They agree to continue the Jackson reality show, because hey, publicity, and while MJ may be a bit tired of it, some others aren’t.

Now I “think” I’ve covered every angle.If I haven’t let me know what I’m not factoring in and I’ll add it in. At this point if this scenario is more or less true, there are three possibilities:

1. MJ is still in a coma.

2. MJ died. (If Murray actually goes to trial we can assume this has probably happened.)

3. MJ is awake and pissed as hell but also unsure if he can come back out now given all the legal trouble many of his family members will be in, as well as how so much of this will fall on his head as the media chooses to twist it all and act like he faked his death for attention or some other similar bullshit.

(I Know I say I’m done and then I post a big theory. Sue me. But yeah you bitches keep sucking me back in. I ignored my email box for over a month and then I finally read it and yeah. DAMN YOU BITCHES!!!!!! )

No more updates

Okay I know I’ve said this before, but I’m not just burnt out on the hoax stuff, I’m totally over it. Too much time has passed and at this point I think either MJ is really dead or he’s never coming out. For people to just hang on still like this… well I just think people really need to think about letting go, for your own sake. I don’t think Michael would want people to hang on like this. I have way too much to do in my personal life to maintain this blog.

People keep asking about the weird list being updated. WHY would I continue updating it? I have no more need for closure. I know that I’m never going to know “for sure” unless MJ pops out of a cake somewhere.

Also, I tried to approve all of the forty-something comments since the last time I logged in. Some of them I didn’t approve. Mainly just the ones that kept saying shit like: “I love you Michael.” “I miss you Michael.”

I am not Michael Jackson. I do not know Michael Jackson. In the unlikely event that Michael Jackson is still alive, I highly doubt he reads this blog. So please stop writing direct comments “to Michael” that he is unlikely to ever read unless he IS dead and separated from time and space is somehow able to do that. But in that case, whether you write it or not, he knows.

I know I’ve said that I’m going to stop the blog many times, but I have too many other projects going on in my life and have COMPLETELY lost interest in this. If the moderation bin gets full I’ll try to log in to approve comments, but I won’t be reading or responding to comments because I’ve just got too many other things to do. Thank you to all those who have participated on the blog and said lovely things about it and me.

Thanks for reading.

Episode 2 of The Jackson Reality Show

Three points:

1. Michael Lives shirt. I’m not sure what kind of statement Jermaine’s wife is trying to make here. Maybe she’s saying MJ’s spirit lives on. Maybe she’s saying MJ is really still alive. Somehow I doubt MJ would be letting EVERYONE in on it if he’d hoaxed his death. I honestly don’t think he’d be telling Jermaine. I know that sounds mean but Jermaine isn’t the most honest Jackson and I’m not sure MJ could trust him with that information. I find it even less likely that he’d be telling all his in-laws. So the shirt is probably just a shirt.

2. “Where Michael’s doing his shows.” One of the brothers mentioned the O2 as where michael IS doing his shows, in future tense, not past tense. Not, where Michael would have been doing his shows. This segment was CLEARLY filmed after MJ’s death because of the chronological order in which the scene falls. It is pretty much impossible that it happened before. Even if it had been filmed before it would not have been edited into the film like this unless it was edited in purposefully. I don’t really see one of MJ’s brother’s making this kind of slip. Sure there has been a lot of discussing MJ in the present tense like “Michael loves to read.” “Michael Loves life.” (especially weird statement to make about a guy who is supposed to be dead.) But THIS, “Going to the O2 where Michael’s doing his shows.” That’s just too much. This seems like a bizarre slip to make. I really can’t conceptualize:

A. One of MJ’s brothers making THIS specific slip

and

B. No one catching it in the editing room and them still letting the future-tense slip in.

It makes no sense.

3. When they’re standing in front of the O2 it says something about October 28th and something about Michael Jackson opening then. It could have been This Is It, but it’s interesting that it doesn’t really seem like he’s gone.

Number 1 and number 3 could just be coincidence or reading things into things that aren’t there, i.e. dual meanings that aren’t intended. But number 2 is fairly bizarre and unexplainable IMO.

Bal a Versailles and MJ

Okay so someone emailed me to tell me that MJ liked the perfume, Bal a Versailles, for himself. I’d known for awhile that he tended toward women’s perfumes instead of mens. Someone said he didn’t think it was fair the ladies got all the good scents. BAV was supposed to be his favorite, introduced to him by Karen Faye about thirty years ago.

I checked it out online and seriously dude has some good taste. I’m not a stranger to the idea of a man wearing a woman’s fragrance because your body chemistry changes it some. So while it may sound a little weird or fru fru, it actually isn’t if you get the right fragrance for your body chemistry. Since so many people thought MJ smelled great all the time, I’m going to assume they didn’t all think he smelled like a girl. My first husband wore Obsession for women. And it smelled better on him than the men’s version.

He actually had bought it accidentally but liked it so much he didn’t care that it was the women’s fragrance. BAV is pretty expensive, retails for $300 for less than an ounce, but online you can find it for around $136, so that’s not bad. The description of the various notes in the fragrance sounds exactly like something I would wear, so I will most likely try it, both out of curiosity of MJ’s fragrance of choice, and also because just reading the description of the fragrance, he clearly had very good taste.

Here is a forum post about it: MJ Fan Club

Michael Jackson’s Acting

So last night I discovered that MJ was a guest star on the Simpson’s. The episode aired as the first episode of the third season and was called Stark Raving Dad. In it, Homer gets shipped off to a mental institution where he meets a fat white guy named Leon who thinks he’s Michael Jackson. MJ did the voice. For contractual reasons he’s credited as “John Jay Smith,” but most people thought it was really MJ and in 2003 they came out and admitted it was MJ. They re-aired the episode in July as a tribute.

One of the producers of the Simpsons had said that MJ wasn’t the greatest actor but he did fine. I watched the episode twice last night and it’s a funny episode. There are spots in it where MJ nails the delivery and other times where he misses the mark a little. I’ve noticed this in just about everything MJ has acted in (mostly extended music videos where there is acting.) I think with proper coaching he could have been as good an actor as he was a singer and dancer but he wasn’t totally “there.”

I think there are two reasons this is very noticeable to me.

1. He’s such a savant in both singing and dancing and anything short of perfect in acting is going to stick out like a sore thumb. i.e. we’re more likely to forgive it in someone else than we are in MJ just because he’s MJ and so made of awesome in other entertainment areas.

2. MJ basically has a theater/stage background. When you act for the screen it’s always understated. You want to “underact” a little most of the time since the camera and microphones catch everything. With the stage though it’s got to be big. You have to “overact” a little bit for the stage so those in the cheap seats get a good performance as well. Because of MJ’s performing being for live audiences on stages, some of them huge, his singing and dancing has to be “bigger.” That big-ness that works so well for him on stage falls a little more flat in an acting situation. The big-ness also works in music videos because it’s a type of musical theater he was doing.

So then sticking out in my mind is Arnie Klein saying MJ was the greatest actor of our time. Sure it was a slip-up, but what a bizarre slip-up. In some ways I do think MJ was the greatest actor of our time. Not in the sense of traditional acting, but in the way he crafted his public persona. Or in the way he pulled pranks on people. He knows how to orchestrate a prank or publicity stunt. And to a large degree that requires good acting. (I’ve said before I think Lady Gaga is in this same category. I’d say about 95% of the “crazy” we get from her is orchestrated brilliance to keep her private life private. In fact I’d bet money that Gaga has studied MJ and his method of dealing with the press and thought she could come out of it less scathed. Let’s hope she’s right.)

I still find it very odd that he was going to the doctor all the time around the same time Ian Halperin was running around saying MJ had 6 months to live. I think if MJ really was hopped up on all these drugs he’d be more discrete about it. He’d be having someone else get the drugs for him or have them delivered. He could certainly afford to have the doctors come to him. So why go to the hospital/doctors so freaking often where the paps can get you on film over and over and over?

And then the O2 thing. That’s a tiny bit of overacting. He’s walking in like 50 cent. He’s punching the air. He’s giggling. Maybe he’s nervous. Maybe he’s a little drugged. Or maybe he’s just pretending to be and he forgot the thing he’s never quite totally picked up. Acting for the camera has to be a little smaller. Most amateur actors overdo drugged and drunk acting. They make it too big and over-the-top.

Watch the O2 thing again, what do you think? Is this classic MJ acting, just a little bit too big and “off.” Or is this really someone who is drugged out of his mind?

Note this ultimately has little to do with whether he’s alive or dead, since he could have been punking us at O2 for any number of reasons and still died. I just find the whole thing very interesting and I was thinking about how MJ’s acting has always been great in spots for me and a tiny bit off in spots for me, and then decided to apply that back to the O2. Does this fit in with his acting M.O.?

Yes I’ve posted 50 times today… it’s feast or famine with me…

Okay… so thisisalsoit.com now redirects to:

This Site

Also, today was the day that the FBI was supposed to be releasing some files regarding MJ. I’m not sure if it’s in regards to the trials or the death stuff.

Thoughts?

I still find the thisisalsoit.com thing fascinating. I know people are like “That shit ain’t real” but I’m interested in it anyway. I’m interested in the psychology of a person who buys that domain and then starts redirecting every day to a different site that links in some way to MJ.

It’s gone on too long and too consistently to just be a prank. IMO. Is it a true believer? Is it someone in the MJ camp? Is it MJ himself? What the fuck is up with this? Hell maybe it IS just a prankster… if so I’m pretty damn impressed with this level of commitment and dedication to a prank.

Does all of it mean something? Does it mean nothing? What’s the deal?

Jackson Five Reality Show Continued Thoughts

I just finished watching the second episode, or technically I think it’s more like the second part of the first episode. “The Aftermath,” as it was titled. This episode makes me think more that MJ is really dead. I dunno I just think there is something excessively creepy about the idea of MJ hoaxing his death then all these people conspiring to keep up the hoax.

I mean the interviews with various members of the family I kind of get cause they can’t totally hide from the media because the media will speculate anyway and it’s better for them to make some kind of statement about something then to hide and let the media just make it up. But when we get into things like this reality show… they didn’t have to do this. And the fact that the reality show is going on and they are all talking about mourning. Not just the four of them, but we’ve got Jermaine’s current wife in the mix, and 3T, tito’s kids in the mix. It’s just a LOT of collusion IMO to pull off something like this.

So watching this second part, my inclination is either that MJ is dead, OR that MJ hoaxed but has no intention of coming back and these sorts of shows and specials are to help give the fans closure and seal the idea in the popular culture’s mind that he really is gone. Part of me thinks if MJ was really alive AND planning to come back that either A: He would have come back sooner. Like Halloween for Thriller and TII would have been perfect. Souza’s movie theory would have been kickass if it had happened. or B. There would be a lot of clues and slip-ups without so much reinforcement of the original “MJ died” story.

As it is, many people think there have been a lot of clues and slip ups. And if MJ is alive then that would make some sense, but the continued reinforcement of the original story makes me think that IF MJ is alive he wants to remain in hiding and wants the world to continue to think he’s gone. If he was intending to come out there wouldn’t be so much reinforcement of the original story because the idea would be to let enough weirdness slip that overall most people would start to think he was probably alive, so when he came out it wasn’t such a huge shock. (I’m sure MJ wouldn’t want to feel responsible for heart attacks and such with his return.)

However, despite how much the media tortured him, and despite all the crap he went through I just don’t see Michael as the type of person who would put his fans through that much anguish. He really loved the fans and I don’t think he’d do that. I mean before the announcement of another concert, MJ had faded to the background for most people. All he had to do was keep a low profile or stay in Ireland for fuck’s sake, where shit was more peaceful for him. But he was always going to be MJ, no escaping that.

I don’t think he somehow “had” to live his life for everybody else instead of himself, but at the same time I think he was a very sensitive soul who was very conscious of other people’s pain as well as his own, so I don’t see him doing something intentionally that would cause this much emotional pain for so many people. Not to mention the stress and strain and upset it would cause his family and friends who would have to pretend and go along with him being dead.

So if he’s alive, I think he probably isn’t coming back, and not only that but that there was some kind of genuine reason he felt trapped and that that was his only escape hatch. Something maybe to do with the concerts, maybe to do with drugs, maybe to do with a lot of things but I think if he didn’t actually die he felt in some way that his life was threatened and put a plan into action to escape. And if that’s the case then yes, his safety and health is far more important than the emotional state of fans because fans CHOOSE to let themselves get that emotionally attached to a person they don’t know.

Basically I don’t know but I spend more time thinking he’s dead than thinking he’s alive lately. Where I’d always before pretty much stayed around 50/50 and could see both sides of it, now I’m at at about 75/25 with a 25% chance he’s alive somewhere. But even if he’s alive he’s probably not coming back. So that pretty much does me as a fan no good.

And I guess I could do the whole: Well I hope he’s alive and happy and blah blah blah, but the truth is, except for what his death would do to his real friends (the few he had), his family, and especially his children, he is probably in a happier place if dead. As a fan my experience of him doesn’t change except for the lack of new stuff by him. But I think he wanted to get into more directing and such instead of the music.

Anyway that was really rambly and I’ve written a LOT today. I will probably be quiet for awhile now.

Does anyone know how long the Jackson’s reality show is, how many episodes? And when another episode will air?

Jackson Five Reality Show

So I’m watching the J5 reality show and so far a few things have really struck me on the pilot episode:

1. They don’t seem to “get” that the “magic” of the Jackson 5 was Michael. Period. No matter how you slice it or how you sugarcoat it, the bottom line is… MICHAEL is how they got so big in the first place. Now granted they all have talent. There isn’t an untalented one in the bunch and I think Tito as a musical artist is especially underrated. However, they aren’t anything “wow pop” special that has mass appeal. Not without Michael.

2. Some scenes especially in the beginning seemed rather forced. Scenes clearly meant to vindicate Michael, like them standing up for him and talking about him being acquitted and being innocent, etc. It’s like it was rehearsed. Now I’m certainly not saying they don’t believe in MJ’s innocence. I’m sure that they do. It just seemed a little staged to me at that point.

3. There is very little talk other than that about Michael. I expected them to be trying to get Michael in on it and to see a lot of that on film, but didn’t really. The almost purposeful way in which they skirt around mentioning Michael too much makes it almost comical that they are planning to make a new Jackson 5 album WITHOUT Michael. So really aren’t they the Jackson 4 then? We also don’t even see Randy. He seems to not be interested in it. So it’s just all around bizarre with 4 of them pretending that they are all there and ignoring that Michael isn’t.

4. This is what really gets me. There is a scene where Jermaine is talking to his brothers about how he felt when they left Motown and he stayed and the rift between them and blah blah blah. He breaks down and cries. Now this is a YEARS old situation. YEARS. It’s way too old to get this dramatic and emo about… IF MJ died and they actually care about him.

I mean every single one of them gets a little teary eyed in this scene and Jermaine is really turning on the water works. And yet… where are these tears when MJ died? Jermaine gives the announcement at the hospital almost right after MJ died. He says something like “man this is hard” but there is no evidence that it really is. So he breaks down bawling like a baby in the J5 reality show in which he talks about a situation that isn’t even death-related that happened YEARS ago, but he can’t muster a single tear for the announcement of Michael’s death to the world?

Now please don’t misconstrue this. The fact that Jermaine and really all the brothers break down and cry during this scene in the J5 reality show shows a very human and actually endearing side to them all. In fact, it’s the first time I’ve liked Jermaine and felt like he was being real and open. THIS guy I can feel some sympathy for. The fakey fake platitudes and trying to be Michael, I find gross. I do think one rather hypocritical problem with a lot of MJ fans is that they go on and on about how MJ is human and you don’t know him so don’t judge him and blah blah blah, but then they run straight to “OMG Jermaine is an ass.” HELLO? Do you know Jermaine? No. Now granted I can say JUST from what I’ve seen of Jermaine that I’m generally not that fond of him. I can judge based on what I know but that’s the same thing I do with Michael and any other public figure that I don’t personally know. I make a judgment call based on the intel I have and understand that I don’t have the whole picture. And that above all, ALL of these people are fellow human beings even if all of them aren’t my personal cuppa.

My inclination is that somehow MJ is out there somewhere. I just can’t get behind this idea that all these men are so sensitive they’re crying over this issue of the J5 splitting up years ago, but somehow MJ dies and their eyes suddenly dry up.

I mean seriously… what the fuck. Stay tuned for more commentary on this as I watch more of it. Also be sure to see the other post I wrote about “BACK”

BACK as MJ? Um… I think not.

Okay so over on forums like Mjkit there is talk of a poster called “BACK” who several people for some inane reason think is MJ just because he seems to know a lot of stuff. Moderators of the forum where BACK is from (not sure if he originally posted on MJkit or another one of the MJ hoax sites) have claimed that he IS in fact MJ. Which I find just insane.

Here are some screenshots to some of BACK’s posts:

http://mjkit.forumotion.net/michael-s-friends-f63/back-screenshots-t2433.htm?highlight=back+screenshots

First of all, I want to say I am not one of these goofy people who holds MJ up to impossible standards of inhuman angelic perfection. I know he curses. I know he’s got a dirty/naughty/sexual side. I know he’s a normal man. I think everybody has this vision of who MJ ‘is’ without knowing him personally and I am no different in that respect. I think he’s absolutely an alpha male in every definition of that word. Just because he doesn’t tend to yell at people or have this deep gruff voice and just because he isn’t a hulking he-man, don’t think that man didn’t know he had power or how to wield it. Fans crumbling at his feet is pretty much solid evidence of how very alpha this man is/was.

I think in many ways it is MJ’s way or the highway. I don’t think this makes him a bad man, but I just think anyone who goes into something thinking Michael is weak has another thing coming to them.

I believe Michael is/was an incredibly strong human being.

I’ve heard the private phone conversations that were released on Youtube. In them you hear him being just a guy. He’s got normal insecurities, hopes, fears. He curses a little. He’s just very normal. And I think that is a close approximation of the “real MJ.” But even when talking about the “real MJ” or the real ANYONE we have to realize that everybody is different in different social circumstances. How he was with LMP is going to be dramatically different than how he was on the private phone conversations. How he was with fans is going to be different than how he was with his family. Same for media, paps, children, and any other person he came into contact with.

Having said all that though, I do NOT believe that “BACK” is MJ and I think it’s fairly offensive to say that he is. Almost like this desperate grasping at straws to make Michael alive. There is someone who used to chat over at MJHD who I do think maybe COULD have been MJ, though if he was MJ I think he was holding a lot of his real personality back. Which would make sense, as I’m a fan and I think MJ really didn’t want people, fans especially to think poorly of him.

If this person wasn’t MJ they certainly had the “spirit of MJ” and were very positively influenced by their exposure to MJ.

But anyway I don’t think “BACK” is MJ. I think the person is way too abrasive and brash and curses way too much. There is no sense of the humility that MJ has there. It’s just… it’s more like Kanye West honestly than MJ.

Now a lot of people have appealed to the public persona issue and I acknowledge fully that MJ knew how to work his image. I’m not saying he’s a perfect angel. But I also don’t think he had a personality transplant. Nor do I think he was a brash rude, asshole. You just can’t keep up a persona 24/7 without to some extent BECOMING that persona. So I genuinely believe that ultimately MJ was a gentle soul. And being a gentle soul means you don’t run around cursing AT people all the time. Especially people you aren’t close to. Now did MJ probably curse at people he was close to? At times I’m sure he did. He’s human. But, that’s far different than randomly cursing at people on a forum online. I really can’t imagine half of that language or even that speaking pattern/cadence coming out of MJ’s mouth.

That’s the other thing you have to look at. Not just cursing or not cursing. MJ has a very distinct way of speaking and expressing himself. And that is completely absent from BACK’s posts. Granted BACK seems to know a lot of stuff. But there are a lot of people who could “know a lot of stuff” including members of the Jackson family, Jackson family friends, people who were very close by and knew a lot of details of the trial and etc.

Also, it’s possible since many of the things BACK talks about are NOT common knowledge, he may be pulling some of it out of his ass. If YOU can personally confirm information BACK is saying then it wouldn’t be that hard for any other hardcore fan to find it. If YOU personally cannot confirm the information, it just “sounds right” it could just as easily be made up.

I know people want MJ to be alive, but please for the love of all that is good and sweet, let’s not turn MJ into some kind of Kanye West caricature and then appeal to “public persona” vs. “real MJ.” I think much of MJ’s public persona as far as the kindness, humility, caring, etc… I think that WAS the soul of who this man is/was. And if I didn’t, I probably wouldn’t be a fan. What makes him so special besides his amazing talent, is his heart. And BACK doesn’t have that.